I'm in need of help(horrible life)?

First of all, calm down. You, and only you, have power to change your life for the better. Trust me I know. I felt like that around the beginning of this year, but I started ignoring the little annoying things that drive me crazy and started focusing on the little things that I love like the sound of a train in the distance, or the sun on my face, or talking to my friends. If someone is bothering you then just take a deep breath and remember something you love. It really does help and eventually you'll find yourself only looking at the good things and not caring about those little annoying things.